Monday, July 1, 2013

Kings of Summer: Bottoming Out

June 30th, 2013        “Bottoming Out”      Rev. Heather Jepsen
Sermon Series: “Kings of Summer”
1 Kings 19
          As many of you know, this summer I have challenged myself to preach strictly from the Old Testament.  This sermon series, “Kings of Summer” is helping us to examine texts that we are less familiar with, as well as study more closely the God of the Old Testament who makes many of us uncomfortable.
          Over the past few weeks we have come to know the prophet Elijah.  A Tishbite of Tishbe in Gilead, Elijah has been called by the Lord to speak against Ahab, king of Israel.  Ahab and his wife Jezebel have been encouraging the worship of Baal, a great offense to the jealous God YHWH.  After three years of drought in which Elijah hid outside the bounds of the country, he returned to announce to Ahab that YHWH would finally bring the rains.  Following his announcement, Elijah engineers a contest between YWHW and Baal.  YWHW wins and Elijah has all 450 of the prophets of Baal killed.
          Our reading picks up here, after rain has finally come upon the land.  Jezebel hears of Elijah’s slaughter of her prophets and so she sends a messenger his way with a threat, “So may the gods do to me, and more also, if I do not make your life like the life of one of them by this time tomorrow.”  Hers is an understandable position and why Elijah seems surprised to be threatened after engineering a mass murder I will never know.
          Elijah seems to come to his senses after his brash show of confidence and “zeal” for the Lord and realizes his life is in real danger.  He is afraid, and runs to hide in the far corners of the land.  He heads to Beer-sheba, the very edge of the southern kingdom of Judah and about as far away from Jezebel as he can get.  Elijah leaves his servant behind in town, wanders out into the desert, and falls asleep under a bush.  He has decided to die.  “It is enough,” he declares, but I prefer the translation “too much.”  “Too much, God!  I’ve had enough, kill me now.”
          Elijah appears to have had a sudden change of heart.  No longer the confident messenger, taunting the rival prophets of Baal and calling down fire from heaven, now Elijah is nothing more than weak and suicidal.  Perhaps he is feeling guilty for slaughtering the prophets of Baal, it’s not like God told him specifically to do that, it appears more like he got carried away in the moment.  Or perhaps he is doubting his ability to do any more for God; any servant of the Lord knows the true threat that burnout can be.  Whatever it is, Elijah declares that he is done, and he is ready to die.
          Lucky for him, that is not the will of the Lord.  Elijah falls asleep and is awakened by the touch of an angel.  Food and drink are made available to him but he soon lies down again.  A second time the angel awakens him and feeds him, encouraging him to work up his strength as he still has a long journey ahead of him. 
          Elijah gets up and for forty days and nights he travels through the wilderness to Mount Horeb, once known as Mount Sinai.  Upon arriving there he takes shelter in a cave.  It is not long before the word of the Lord comes to him.  “What are you doing here Elijah?” God asks.  Elijah then breaks out his list of complaints, “I’ve been zealous for the Lord,” he says, “but no one listens to me and I am tired of doing it by myself.”  A careful reader of 1 Kings can’t help but wonder what Elijah is talking about.  The people have been listening - did they not fall on their faces at Mount Carmel?  And he is not the only one, for Obadiah has hidden 150 prophets of the Lord in a cave.  Elijah seems to have a case of the “woe is me”s.
          God decides to lift Elijah’s spirits by passing by.  In one of the more memorable portions of the Old Testament, Elijah listens and waits for the presence of the Lord.  There is a violent wind, a great earthquake, and a rush of fire but God is not in any of these events.  Elijah waits on and finally he senses the presence of God in the “sound of sheer silence” or the “still small voice” depending on how you want to translate the Hebrew.  Sensing the presence of all that is holy, Elijah covers his face.
          After the show, God asks the same question, “What are doing here, Elijah?”  And surprisingly Elijah gives the same “woe is me” response.  “Fine”, God seems to say, “I will anoint a prophet in your place” and Elijah moves on from there to mark Elisha as the one who would follow him.
          Now, I am not sure what you think of this story but I can tell you that I am really beginning to like this sermon series, this challenge to myself, and this story about Elijah.  What I find so striking in these readings is how very human Elijah is.  First he begins his journey in hiding.  He performs miracles for the widow of Zarephath but he seems just as surprised by his power as she is, “Look! Your son is alive”. 
          He is sent to bring a message of the end of the drought, but then seems really bothered by Ahab’s statement that Elijah is the one causing trouble for Israel.  It seems that the showdown between gods was all Elijah’s idea and he becomes really puffed up with pride from the display.  Between mocking the prophets of Baal, to calling down fire from heaven, to orchestrating a mass murder, Elijah not only seems full of himself, he seems out of control.  The power of the prophet has gone to his head.
          It’s no wonder that we find him crashing back to the ground here in 1 Kings 19.  It is such a human response.  We are all capable of getting drunk with power and then pushing things one step too far.  Most of us have been in over our heads at least once in our lives.  Elijah is in too deep, he has gone too far, and now the bleep hits the fan.  Jezebel is ready to kill him and God may or may not come to his aide.
          From extreme highs to extreme lows Elijah bottoms out in depression.  He runs away and hides, ready to give up and throw in the towel.  It’s over, he’s done.  And if not for God, this is where the story would end; Elijah limps off into the sunset to drink away the rest of his life, a poor depressed mess.
          But this isn’t a story about Elijah.  It is a story about God, the God of the Old Testament.  After Elijah’s great show and after his great sin, God meets Elijah here, in his depression, in his loneliness, in his shame, and in his grief.  Elijah has bottomed out and here at bottom, he meets God.
          And God says, “What the heck is your problem man.  What are you doing here?”  And kicks him in the rear to send him back out into the world.  But first, God makes a point of showing Elijah that it’s not all about flash-bang faith.  It’s not all about fire from heaven and bringing people back to life and great shows of power.  No, it’s about quiet things, like breath, and listening, and being still.  God is not in the wind or earth or fire.  God is in your mind and heart and the sound of silence as the breath moves in and out of your lungs.  God is with you when no one else is.  God is with you when you have bottomed out. 
          As modern believers I think we can all relate to the ups and downs of Elijah’s story.  No, we haven’t raised people from the dead or called down fire, but we have been high and we have been low.  We have felt the sheer power and presence of God moving through our veins, and we have also felt totally alone and ready to die.  Who among us has not wanted to give up at some point in their lives?  Like Elijah we have all cried out, “It’s too much Lord, I quit!”
          God meets us in those low points, when we are feeling sorry for ourselves, and God sends us back out into the world.  I am reminded here of my role as a parent.  Parents of young ones know, and others here will remember that little kids are full of emotional extremes.  One minute they are laughing and having fun, and the next they are crying like it is the end of the world.  They fall off their bike and they are ready to quit.  And what does a good parent do?  A good parent listens to and acknowledges their complaint, dries their tears, dusts them off, pats their rump, and sends them back out into the world.  This is exactly what God does for Elijah.  And this is exactly what God does for us.
           Who is the God of the Old Testament?  The God of the Old Testament is one who dusts us off, pats our rumps, and sends us on our way.  Sure, life is tough, we will have high times and we will have low, and God will be with us every step of the way.  But when we are at our lowest, when things are their worst, and we sit in silence alone, then we are in the true presence of God.  When we are ready to give up, God meets us, lifts us up, and sends us back out.  Life will never be perfect, and it is as much our own fault as it is the world around us, but God will always be with us.  God will always meet us in the sheer silence, in the still small voice, and encourage us to go back out into the world, encourage us to face another day.
          The God of the Old Testament is a God who meets us when we are living on the edge and gives us just enough to keep going.  We don’t need to hedge our bets in this crazy world, because when everything quiets down, it is in the silence that we will meet the true power, the true God.  And when we are at our worst, when we are bottoming out, the God of the Old Testament, listens to our complaints, dries our tears, dusts us off, and then kicks our rumps to get back out there.  From the days of ancient Israel to the days of modern America, life is tough, but God is with us.  Thanks be to God.  Amen.     

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